Genderized Childhood

In an extension from the questions in class Tuesday: (#4- What did you do with your guardians? Did you engage in different activities with your father that with your mother?

I was raised in a much different household. My father was a special forces and airborne ranger drill Sargent so I was always held to higher standards than my peers. Which led to an overly competitive attitude in everything no matter the sport or activities standard gender ideology. For example, I started hunting at the age of 5 and killed, gutted, and cleaned my first animal at 6 years of age, the same year my little brother was born. Since I was already so "tough" tomboyish and active, my father assumed that my brother, being a boy, would be even more so than myself. He was dead wrong! My father tried very hard to get my younger brother to be interested in the things that I was, which was mostly boy things, and my brother always rejected it. He hated to get dirty and begged to quit "pee-wee football" to do speed skating or dancing because he liked the spandex outfits. That was the last straw for my father! I then began to spend most of my time with with my father while my brother spend most of his time with my mom. Then when my dad left when I turned 18 I was forced to become the "man" of the house because my mother would not. She refused to scold my brother on most occasions and let him get away with everything so the house got very unruly for a while until I took charge. Me and my mother do not get along much now because I feel like she should have been harder on my brother and she feels that I should be a more caring and sympathetic person. She reminds me nearly every week "you know Kenna as hard as you think you are you are still a girl." I know my gender and I follow my gender roles in every way except my attitude. I am not a submissive person and I hate trying to be sympathetic and "mushy-gushy" stuff. So in the end, because I was raised my my father, I fulfilled his wishes of a rough and tough "ranger type" child, like he wanted for his boy, and my brother fulfilled my mothers needs for love and affection, sympathy, and constant understanding. So ultimately me and my brother seemed to have almost switched gender roles within our own family.

I was searching for a video to kind of express how my father felt about my brother "acting like a pansy" and I found this disturbing video of a man who killed his girlfriends son for "acting like a little girl"

and as a side note I found this SO FUNNY video about a guy singing about how girls act in relationships
fast foward to 1:48 in the video to hear the song

FAST FOWARD to 1:48 in the video